Living on the edge of a tornado

The Truth.  Our Truth.

This is Oklahoma. We have tornados..lots of them! Tornados form from an extreme struggle between warm and cold air. We all sit on our porch and watch if there is any light left in the sky. There is usually not much warning beforehand except maybe a slight suspicion.

I often feel that way about our life right now.  A lot of you may not know we have this major joy and this major crisis going on at the same time.  The two don't go together at all.  In fact there are moments that I have found myself lost at which emotion to feel.  And that brings me to the feet of Jesus.  Sunday I felt like I sat through a funeral during the service I was a mess of tears and it was Mother's Day which probably didn't help.

Our pastor talked about adversity.  Summed up: "Trust God and follow the plan"

We are holding onto each other and praying for enough grace to make it through each day.  We are praying that our questions of why this, why now, why us, and how long will this last bring us closer to trusting God.  I have found that at times I'm standing on the facts that I believe with all my heart because my feelings make me feel un-cared for by him and I KNOW the FACTS that this is NOT true.  I don't often think of the "father of lies" but I KNOW he exists and I don't doubt for a second he is on the edge of our minds looking for a crack to enter our thoughts and feed on the doubt that could devastate us.

Here is the thing the plan, God's plan is for us to adopt a 4 year old girl no matter what our circumstances say.  And we have been well prepared that adoption is a life long battle against our child's history, her beginnings.  And we are about to face it head on and what Satan would use as a playground to wreck this child's life.  God is sending us to rescue her; to breathe life into a child neglected and abandoned who without us would spend her whole life in an institution never to be introduced to the Lord who Loves her.  We are obeying the call to adopt her, to love her, to redeem her life, to tell her she is worthy of love and grace, to make her our daughter, to graft her in to our family tree.  That doesn't sit well with Satan I'm sure.  This is NOT going to be easy.  The War for her is real.  And so we stand with Christ.  In the midst of a job crisis.  Truly depending on God for our future, for grace for each other, for enough love and forgiveness to last each day, for enough money to survive this layoff, for a new career for Grant,  for the parenting wisdom to teach the child who was sent to the principle's office for hitting today, for the strength to outlast the "next" thing thrown on our plate.

If you want to know how to pray for us:

Pray for a job offer.

Pray that we trust God despite our circumstances.

Pray for Caroline.  She is about to be uprooted from EVERYTHING she has ever known.  Pray that the nannies prepare her for the transition.  But really she has no concept of family so there isn't much they can do.

Pray for me.  I might not be her favorite (this is typical I've heard) in fact she may have nothing to do with me for days.  If this happens it will be hard.  REAL hard.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge to him, and he will direct your path." Proverbs 3: 5-6

Updated picture of Caroline taken a few weeks ago...

Daisy Blaze

This is our rescued red eared slider turtle named Daisy Blaze.

It was going to be a week long pet until Luke kept trying to pick it up and Daisy tried to bite his finger off. So we released him into the "wild".


Me and my kids

I don't take nearly enough pictures with my kids but this time they were on the mood��
We were in the process of sorting out the garage sale donations. The kids want to keep it all...everything is treasure! 


For those who have not heard We are going to be parents again! To an awesome 4 year old little girl living on the other side of the world. This weekend Grant reworked a closet which now has a side for 6 year old and a 4 year old! Now I can see what clothes we need to buy :) Next up the beds! This is starting to get real!!! :)

Mom of a Boy

I love my boys :)  One of my favorite things about both of them is their love of dump trucks.  I'm not sure why they love them but if it is choice of running or running while pushing a dump truck they will pick the dump truck every time.  They often go at full speed and I know that when they crash it won't be pretty.   So far we've been lucky.

So I can't leave this post without mentioning this purple field of flowers.  This ain't Texas!  We don't have bluebonnet fields lining all the highways.  Which I miss from my time there.  What we do have is clover.  Let's be real it is a weed.  Not really desirable....expect in the spring by a photographer ;)  This morning was overcast and we are expecting a big thunderstorm this afternoon so who knows if it will last.  But I want to photograph this field again with LIGHT.  It is fun to play and capture my baby boy at the same time :)

God's Provision for Caroline

We have been so blessed this past week with the awesome garage sale with items donated by friends and family and the match given by Karis fund with LifeSong for Orphans.  We also found out this week that we received a grant from Show Hope!!!!  :)  Did the math this morning and it looks like we just have $4000 left to raise! :)  God is providing for Caroline in amazing ways!  We are just humbled by the generosity that has been poured out to give her a family.  The money to be raised was overwhelming when we filled out the adoption application and to think less 7 months later we are so close to having all of the funds raised is amazing! God's girl, God's timing, God's money.  Adoption is God's idea and he is making it happen :)

Thank you to all who have given and shared about our adoption story.  I also did the math on when we could possibly bring Caroline home and it could be late July or August if approvals come quickly.  Please pray that China sends our Letter of Approval soon so we can start loving on our girl.  (P.s. we can show her picture online once we get that approval too!!!)

Happy Birthday Caroline!

This week we celebrate our daughter we have never met but who has already changed our lives for the better.  God chose her just for us and us for her... a literal match made in heaven :)

The kids only know one way to celebrate a birthday and so we had a little party for Caroline's 4th birthday.   Overflowing with pink cupcakes :)

I can't wait to see what she wants for her 5th birthday and for her chance to blow out the candles. After watching siblings and cousins have birthday parties she will be ready for her turn I'm sure.  And we will have a party as big as is fitting for her personality with either pink, purple, or red cupcakes to celebrate.  Savannah thinks red will be her favorite color since it's popular in China.  I think purple will be her favorite just like her big sisters ;)  or she might pick a color all her own.  I can't wait!


Winter came and is disappearing

It was cold.  But the Carhartt jackets came to the rescue! 

 Then I found these two cuddled up for a good read.
It snowed a little but they made the best of it...snowmen were made and colored.

One of my little guys is growing up!

 He hasn't jumped out yet so the crib stays...
We passed the cold days playing charades.  They did better than I thought!

And finally warmer weather!!!  They LOVED washing the car!  Although I think they got wetter than the car :)